Diaper Change #36 - JUST SHOOT ME!!

The Clean Diaper:

The Dirty Diaper:

We do not censor Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) memes. However, due to their forceful and salty language, we do not feature them within our actual WWFFS pages. Click here to open VBO #36 in its very own window.

Miriam's Commentary

Buzz sent a previously unpublished original image to me after our fifth phone chat, be sure to check that out for a deep dive. It was during that conversation where we noted the reality that most people focus on a relatively small number of humans being violently killed daily. The reality is this: every day 200,000 tiny humans are murdered without a second thought while we obsess over less than 2% of that number killed by all other means including homicide by gun (which excludes acts of war which Buzz and I reference here with the BB Drop video).

Again, it is a simple matter of perspective. History is my field of study and I can tell you that nothing in known human history compares to this kind of persistent daily average of intentional killing of human beings. A few isolated single days may breach the 200k mark, but nothing compares to this sort of resolute, interminable, deliberate and daily disposal of human life.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #35 - A Truth is a Truth No Matter How Tall

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[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

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The Clean Diaper: WWFFS $35

Miriam's Commentary

This image was discussed thoroughly in our fifth phone chat with Buzz, be sure to check that out for a deep dive. As much as the Geisels and others protest the so-called 'hi-jacking' of the huge truths espoused by our beloved Horton, there is hardly a better place on this planet to aim that truth than the abortion issue. 

Again, it is a simple matter of perspective. History is my field of study and I can tell you that nothing in known human history compares to this kind of persistent daily average of intentional killing of human beings. A few isolated single days may breach the 200k mark, but nothing compares to this sort of resolute, interminable, deliberate and daily disposal of human life.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #34 - Perspective

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[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

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The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #34

Miriam's Commentary

The sheer contrast between the numbers of humans forcefully killed by abortion daily (200,000) and humans forcefully killed daily by every other means - excluding war but including murder by guns (1300) should be cause for alarm. Our society’s obsession over the latter and nonchalance towards the former is quite odd to me at least… and it seems as though Ms Vulgar Buzz would quite emphatically agree.

How can we continue to obsess over the 0.65% and casually dismiss the the 99.35% as irrelevant?

I was chatting with Ms. Buzz about this a day or two after a radicalized US Army Vet drove into a crowd of New Years Day revelers in New Orleans killing 14 and wounding 35. She said she had made this meme to slap some much needed perspective into the consciousness of all thoughtful people in the face of similar events in the past decade.

Less than 1% of the humans violently killed today will be at the hands of terrorists, gun toting gangsters, or any other person with murderous intent.

More than 99% of humans violently killed today will be at the hands of doctors who legally perform the killings with deft efficiency and focused regard for the safety of the women wishing to terminate their pregnancy.

Ms. Buzz commented further in our phone chat that there is a very plausible reason that there has been an uptick in mass murders in the last few decades. She proposes that there might be causation in the fact that 200,000 humans are killed and thrown away as trash daily, thus devaluing human life in general.

If human lives are that devalued and expendable would it not stand to reason that our entire world culture has become a culture of death?

If such a culture exists (and Ms Buzz and I think it does now more than ever before in human history) then why are we surprised at mass murders that mimic decades old video games produced by that culture (e.g. Death Race 2000)?

Honestly, what do we expect in such a global culture?

Of course there are those who conveniently dismiss the entire thought process above as coming from some right wing nut cases that just want to oppress female humans and their rights.

Perhaps here is where we need to remind those very folks that female fetuses are targeted for abortion more than males in many cultures.

So are fetuses of color.

So are fetuses with detectable disabilities.

Seems odd that we especially target female fetuses of color with disabilities for violent death in order to protect the rights of older females.

Strange indeed.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #33 - Geniuses

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[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

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The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #33

Miriam's Commentary

The level of banality involved in pro-choice argumentation is sometimes truly beyond belief. Fetal Michelle (aka: Our Darling Derry Girl in Utero) brings that reality home here by pointing out how infuriatingly self defeating their reasoning is. Worse than the illogic of Mordor in my humble opinion.

 

 

 

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #32 - Get Rid of It

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[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

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The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #32

Miriam's Commentary

Too often a pregnancy is seen as the woman's problem; as something she is responsible for 'fixing'. Hell cannot burn hot enough for men with this attitude. Killing a vulnerable human is not the solution of course, (as I know all too well) but self-absorbed men (and sometimes women) can rarely see this.

In this incredibly difficult situation, much pressure and responsibility is put on the woman who feels terribly alone and vulnerable. Such things ought not to be. I am thankful that there are resources around the globe for women who wish to leave such men to protect their child and go in search of richer fare.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #31 - Fleeing Abuse and Incest

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[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

After:

The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #31

Miriam's Commentary

Perhaps no other situation is as grave as when a woman feels trapped in an abusive relationship and finds herself pregnant from her abuser... and the worst scenario of abuse is when it is incestual. Fathers, uncles, cousins and brothers participate in this most distressing form of evil. I'll say it again, I don't really believe in capital punishment, but I'd be happy to make an exception for people who perpetrate such evil on a woman and her children. Hell can't burn hot enough for them.

In my personal trauma, I experienced the reality that there are so many good people and organizations out there that want to help a woman protect herself and her children from harm. The key of course is not to give up hope that such a place exists. My heart goes out to every woman in such an evil plight.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #30 - Fleeing Abuse 3

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[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

After:

The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #30

Miriam's Commentary

Perhaps no other situation is as grave as when a woman feels trapped in an abusive relationship and finds herself pregnant from her abuser. I'll say it again, I don't really believe in capital punishment, but I'd be happy to make an exception for people who perpetrate such evil on a woman and her children. Hell can't burn hot enough for them.

In my personal trauma, I experienced the reality that there are so many good people and organizations out there that want to help a woman protect herself and her children from harm. The key of course is not to give up hope that such a place exists. My heart goes out to every woman in such an evil plight.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #29 - Fleeing Abuse 2

Before:

[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

After:

The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #29

Miriam's Commentary

Perhaps no other situation is as grave as when a woman feels trapped in an abusive relationship and finds herself pregnant from her abuser. I'll say it again, I don't really believe in capital punishment, but I'd be happy to make an exception for people who perpetrate such evil on a woman and her children. Hell can't burn hot enough for them.

In my personal trauma, I experienced the reality that there are so many good people and organizations out there that want to help a woman protect herself and her children from harm. The key of course is not to give up hope that such a place exists. My heart goes out to every woman in such an evil plight.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #28 - Fleeing Abuse 1

Before:

[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

After:

The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #28

Miriam's Commentary

Perhaps no other situation is as grave as when a woman feels trapped in an abusive relationship and finds herself pregnant from her abuser. I'll say it again, I don't really believe in capital punishment, but I'd be happy to make an exception for people who perpetrate such evil on a woman and her children. Hell can't burn hot enough for them.

In my personal trauma, I experienced the reality that there are so many good people and organizations out there that want to help a woman protect herself and her children from harm. The key of course is not to give up hope that such a place exists. My heart goes out to every woman in such an evil plight.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #27 - The Worst Poverty

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[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

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The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #27

Miriam's Commentary

Mother Theresa of Calcutta rightly pointed out that there are worse forms of poverty than living in wretched conditions with little food to eat. Far worse is the poverty of heart and soul that would lead one to violently take the life of another human... and the worst form of this is taking the life of the most vulnerable among us.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #26 - Safe Place to Die

Before:

[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

After:

The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #26

Miriam's Commentary

So many heroic women have rightly ignored the advice of misguided friends and physicians who urged them to end a pregnancy because the child has a condition which would make surviving outside the womb impossible. They would rather die than forcefully take the life of another human. Their desire to keep the child living in a warm, safe and loving environment until the end is beautifully following their natural motherly protective instincts. Too bad so many women are pushed into ignoring their own instincts to protect the vulnerable life within.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #25 - True Heroes

Before:

[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

After:

The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #25

Miriam's Commentary

So many heroic women have rightly ignored the advice of misguided friends and physicians who urged them to end a pregnancy for their own safety. They would rather die than take the life of another human. Such an open display of loving heroism should be lauded and praised by everyone, everywhere. Such heroism should be encouraged. Sadly it is not so much these days.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #24 - Strong Brave Mommas

Before:

[Link to Dirty Diaper image pending]

After:

The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #24

Miriam's Commentary

So many heroic women have rightly ignored the advice of misguided friends and physicians who urged them to end a pregnancy for their own safety. They would rather die than take the life of another human. Such an open display of loving heroism should be lauded and praised by everyone, everywhere. Such heroism should be encouraged. Sadly it is not so much these days.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.