Diaper Change #39 - Wombs Should Not Be Tombs

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

We have softened the blow for sensitive souls in the Dirty Diaper above. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

Buzz sent this previously unpublished original image to me recently along with a couple others. The theme of the first couple were focused on the blessing of fertility. This one is clearly decrying that a womb should never be a homicidal tomb.

Buzz commented to me about this one as well: "We weren't just trying to be cute with the rhyme here. I have nothing but compassion for people whose child cannot survive outside the womb and dies inside. But to purposefully take the life of a human in the womb is not respecting the dignity of that person. And yes, we believe a new person is created with God's help at conception."

Personally, I've come to believe that Christ has the power to turn tombs into wombs. Just look at this image that I've encountered in countless houses of worship in the Eastern tradition:

The Resurrection of Christ turned
a the tomb into a womb.

Notice the womb shaped mandorla glowing blue around Jesus as he transforms death into life. The fear of death is no longer necessary because Christ changed it into a life regenerating portal into eternity. Buzz and I touched upon this image being made into a movie in our sixth phone chat.

As I was recovering from the trauma of aborting Emma, someone in my Church showed me this image and pointed out the fact that Jesus can redeem even my traumatized womb. This gave me great hope and solace at that time. It gave me enough hope that I was willing to let my womb be a womb again... three times in fact. My children are such a blessing to my beloved and I, thanks to God's transforming love.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #38 - Fertility is a SUPERPOWER!

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

We have softened the blow for sensitive souls in the Dirty Diaper above. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

Buzz sent this previously unpublished original image to me recently along with a couple others. The theme of the first couple are focused on the blessing of fertility. Large numbers of women, it would seem, do not count their fertility as a blessing and some even refer to their monthly cycle as a curse.

Buzz commented to me in a recent chat that her and her girlfriends were pondering this when they were cranking out the VBOs back in the summer of 2023. They were more than a little irritated about how unappreciative people are of their ability to participate in bringing forth a new person. 

"We are given the privilege of being sub-creators, co-creators with God and we sometimes treat that gift like rubbish," Buzz quipped to me when explaining the meme. Most mom's don't like to have their attitudes adjusted by their kids, but maybe this should be an exception.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #37 - Your Fertility is NOT a Curse!

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

We have softened the blow for sensitive souls in the Dirty Diaper above. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

Buzz sent this previously unpublished original image to me recently along with a couple others. The theme of the first couple are focused on the blessing of fertility. Large numbers of women, it would seem, do not count their fertility as a blessing and some even refer to their monthly cycle as a curse.

Buzz commented to me in a recent chat that her and her girlfriends were pondering this when they were cranking out the VBOs back in the summer of 2023. They were more than a little irritated about how unappreciative people are of their ability to participate in bringing forth a new person. 

"We are given the privilege of being sub-creators, co-creators with God and we sometimes treat that gift like rubbish," Buzz quipped to me when explaining the meme. Most mom's don't like to have their attitudes adjusted by their kids, but maybe this should be an exception.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #36 - JUST SHOOT ME!!

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

We have softened the blow for sensitive souls in the Dirty Diaper above. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

Buzz sent a previously unpublished original image to me after our fifth phone chat, be sure to check that out for a deep dive. It was during that conversation where we noted the reality that most people focus on a relatively small number of humans being violently killed daily. The reality is this: every day 200,000 tiny humans are murdered without a second thought while we obsess over less than 2% of that number killed by all other means including homicide by gun (which excludes acts of war which Buzz and I reference here with the BB Drop video).

Again, it is a simple matter of perspective. History is my field of study and I can tell you that nothing in known human history compares to this kind of persistent daily average of intentional killing of human beings. A few isolated single days may breach the 200k mark, but nothing compares to this sort of resolute, interminable, deliberate and daily disposal of human life.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #35 - A Truth is a Truth No Matter How Tall

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

We have softened the blow for sensitive souls in the Dirty Diaper above. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

This image was discussed thoroughly in our fifth phone chat with Buzz, be sure to check that out for a deep dive. As much as the Geisels and others protest the so-called 'hi-jacking' of the huge truths espoused by our beloved Horton, there is hardly a better place on this planet to aim that truth than the abortion issue. 

Again, it is a simple matter of perspective. History is my field of study and I can tell you that nothing in known human history compares to this kind of persistent daily average of intentional killing of human beings. A few isolated single days may breach the 200k mark, but nothing compares to this sort of resolute, interminable, deliberate and daily disposal of human life.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 

As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #34 - Perspective

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

We have softened the blow for sensitive souls in the Dirty Diaper above. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

The sheer contrast between the numbers of humans forcefully killed by abortion daily (200,000) and humans forcefully killed daily by every other means - excluding war but including murder by guns (1300) should be cause for alarm. Our society’s obsession over the latter and nonchalance towards the former is quite odd to me at least… and it seems as though Ms Vulgar Buzz would quite emphatically agree.

How can we continue to obsess over the 0.65% and casually dismiss the the 99.35% as irrelevant?

I was chatting with Buzz about this a day or two after a radicalized US Army Vet drove into a crowd of New Years Day revelers in New Orleans killing 14 and wounding 35. She said she had made this meme to slap some much needed perspective into the consciousness of all thoughtful people in the face of similar events in the past decade.

Less than 1% of the humans violently killed today will be at the hands of terrorists, gun toting gangsters, or any other person with murderous intent.

More than 99% of humans violently killed today will be at the hands of doctors who legally perform the killings with deft efficiency and focused regard for the safety of the women wishing to terminate their pregnancy.

Buzz commented further in our phone chat that there is a very plausible reason that there has been an uptick in mass murders in the last few decades. She proposes that there might be causation in the fact that 200,000 humans are killed and thrown away as trash daily, thus devaluing human life in general.

If human lives are that devalued and expendable would it not stand to reason that our entire world culture has become a culture of death?

If such a culture exists (and Buzz and I think it does now more than ever before in human history) then why are we surprised at mass murders that mimic decades old video games produced by that culture (e.g. Death Race 2000)?

Honestly, what do we expect in such a global culture?

Of course there are those who conveniently dismiss the entire thought process above as coming from some right wing nut cases that just want to oppress female humans and their rights.

Perhaps here is where we need to remind those very folks that female fetuses are targeted for abortion more than males in many cultures.

So are fetuses of color.

So are fetuses with detectable disabilities.

Seems odd that we especially target female fetuses of color with disabilities for violent death in order to protect the rights of older females.

Strange indeed.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #33 - Geniuses

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

We have softened the blow for sensitive souls in the Dirty Diaper above. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

The level of banality involved in pro-choice argumentation is sometimes truly beyond belief. Fetal Michelle (aka: Our Darling Derry Girl in Utero) brings that reality home here by pointing out how infuriatingly self defeating their reasoning is. Worse than the illogic of Mordor in my humble opinion.

 

It's the same old eugenics. As a historian I can tell you for certain that prenatal sex selection truly came of age when it became easy to identify sex in the womb and abortion on demand became more wide spread. But don't take my word for it. A highly intelligent pro-choice advocate has done impeccable research on this subject.

Award winning research from a
Pro-choice perspective decrying
female infanticide and
prenatal sex selection

Allow me to introduce to you Mara Hvistendahl who won the 2011 Wall Street Journal "Best Book" award and was a finalist for the Pulitzer Prize for "Unnatural Selection: Choosing Boys Over Girls, and the Consequences of a World Full of Men".

"Mara Hvistendahl has written a stunning, impeccably-researched book that does not flinch from examining not only the consequences of the misbegotten policies of sex selection but Western complicity with them." [Amazon promo]

At times in the book she bemoans the fact that 'The Vatican' and other pro life advocates are bound to use her research to fuel their own agendas, however I still find it refreshing that I can agree with many of her concerns on the issue. I highly recommend this book as a fine exception to the steady flow of banal tripe the pro choice folks usually dish up. I hope to meet this lady someday.

  

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #32 - Get Rid of It

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

For the Dirty Diaper we have softened the blow for sensitive souls. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

Too often a pregnancy is seen as the woman's problem; as something she is responsible for 'fixing'. This is a deplorable attitude. Killing a vulnerable human is not the solution of course, (as I know all too well) but self-absorbed men (and sometimes women) can rarely see this.

In this incredibly difficult situation, much pressure and responsibility is put on the woman who feels terribly alone and vulnerable. Such things ought not to be. I am thankful that there are resources around the globe for women who wish to leave such men to protect their child and go in search of richer fare.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.

Diaper Change #31 - Fleeing Abuse and Incest

The Clean Diaper:

Miriam's toned down version of the original

The Dirty Diaper:

The Vulgar Buzz Original (Unsalted)

We have softened the blow for sensitive souls in the Dirty Diaper above. Click here to open the unmodified Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) replete with the trauma-induced salty language of an Irish abortion survivor.

Miriam's Commentary

Perhaps no other situation is as grave as when a woman feels trapped in an abusive relationship and finds herself pregnant from her abuser... and the worst scenario of abuse is when it is incestual. Fathers, uncles, cousins and brothers participate in this most distressing form of evil. I'll say it again, I don't really believe in capital punishment, but I'd be happy to make an exception for people who perpetrate such evil on a woman and her children. Hell can't burn hot enough for them.

In my personal trauma, I experienced the reality that there are so many good people and organizations out there that want to help a woman protect herself and her children from harm. The key of course is not to give up hope that such a place exists. My heart goes out to every woman in such an evil plight.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In my original meme you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will.

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in the original image is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

My Vulgar Buzz Original memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are not made public to promote vulgarity, incite violence or bring harm to anyone. Nor are they an exercise in vicarious traumatization.

Rather they are shared to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

A Note from Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

 
As such a mom, I’m treating this Vulgar Buzz Original as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress; a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in creating these toned down WWFFS style memes is to bring the same message as the VBO's without the lingual slap in the face that might keep some people from even processing the message.

We also want to bring healing to traumatized souls. To that end, Buzz and I have been sharing our phone chats in the 'Survivors Unite!' section. These conversations have had beautiful moments of healing and hope intertwined with the other themes presented on WWFFS.

Our true hope is that something we've done here will help someone make a better choice for the most vulnerable humans in the world.