Diaper Change #36 - JUST SHOOT ME!!

Before:

The Dirty Diaper - VBO #36 

After:

The Clean Diaper - WWFFS #36

Miriam's Commentary

Buzz sent this image to me after our fifth phone chat, be sure to check that out for a deep dive. It was during that conversation where we noted the reality that most people focus on a relatively small number of humans being violently killed daily. The reality is this: every day 200,000 tiny humans are murdered without a second thought while we obsess over less than 2% of that number killed by all other means including homicide by gun (which excludes acts of war which Buzz and I reference here with the BB Drop video). 

Again, it is a simple matter of perspective. History is my field of study and I can tell you that nothing in known human history compares to this kind of persistent daily average of intentional killing of human beings. A few isolated single days may breach the 200k mark, but nothing compares to this sort of resolute, interminable, deliberate and daily disposal of human life.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered I was one of the rare abortion survivors. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. It definitely helped and I am happy to report I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing with her and through working with Miriam here as well. 

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a Psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.