Diaper Change #32 - Get Rid of It

Before:

The Dirty Diaper: VBO #32

After:

The Clean Diaper: WWFFS #32

Miriam's Commentary

Too often a pregnancy is seen as the woman's problem; as something she is responsible for 'fixing'. Hell cannot burn hot enough for men with this attitude. Killing a vulnerable human is not the solution of course, (as I know all too well) but self-absorbed men (and sometimes women) can rarely see this.

In this incredibly difficult situation, much pressure and responsibility is put on the woman who feels terribly alone and vulnerable. Such things ought not to be. I am thankful that there are resources around the globe for women who wish to leave such men to protect their child and go in search of richer fare.

A Note from Buzz on Trauma Dumping

In the first meme above (we refer to these as 'Vulgar Buzz Originals' or VBO's) you get the full force of trauma that I was working through at age eighteen when I discovered that my mother had attempted to abort me. My therapist recommended that I use my graphic design skills to work through my rage, grief and pain... a closely supervised 'trauma dump' if you will. 

The visceral, raw and often vulgar rage you see in my original images is not that of some ultra right wing pro-lifer.

That fetus is me!

That little baby holding up the sign is me desperately trying to fight for my right to live.

This is personal, not theoretical.

Let that sink in a minute.

All that being said, I am happy to report that working through this under the careful guidance of my therapist has definitely helped. I've moved past the 'rage stage' and found some healing. Healing has also come through working with Miriam here and connecting with other abortion survivors (there are more of us than you think).

If you have been traumatized we highly recommend seeking healing through a psychologist who specializes in trauma therapy like our friend Paul in Uganda. (nkatapaul@gmail.com, WhatsApp  +256765480918). We had the privilege of speaking with Paul in Chat 8 which you can see here.

Our friend in Uganda specializes in trauma therapy

VBO memes are not for sensitive souls or the feint of heart. They are presented here not as an exercise in vicarious traumatization, but rather to allow the viewer to gain some sense of the raw trauma that I and other abortion survivors have experienced. I believe it also gives a relatively realistic response of a tiny human in utero if it was given adequate abilities to express itself knowing it was about to be violently dispatched.

Miriam on Diaper Changes

A mother isn’t bothered by a messy diaper or a child covered in vomit. We clean them off, sometimes singing to them or tickling them along the way and then we send them off to play.

As such a mom, I’m treating each Vulgar Buzz Original (VBO) as a child with a dirty diaper. I’m not bothered much by its stench and refuse to ignore the child because it is smelly or in this case, uttering crass vulgarities under dire duress, a completely understandable response to trauma.

It was pretty easy to imitate the VBO style with InDesign to make the more civil language version above. My intent in doing this is to begin bringing healing to the traumatized soul, like any mom would. In the end however, it isn't important which image helps a person make a better choice, it only matters that the message hits home before it is too late for the most vulnerable humans in the world.